I had a good experience (not that some are good and some aren’t) with invoking a mantra when I was in a sudden, unanticipated funk yesterday.
I was in a bit of a panic, thinking that my immersion in Vedanta was not working to bring about equanimity, when just as suddenly I was reminded that I am not the entity experiencing this upset. I am the Awareness within which it is appearing.
This realization brought calm and a sense of wholeness and okay-ness. A short time later, the funk itself lifted, leaving behind a lesson for the ‘future’.
In reading your book, Self-Knowledge—The King of Secrets, I got bogged down in a familiar spot, namely, following the logic showing that all objects are a projection of me, Awareness.
I did remember, and for the first time apply, the teaching that I need to hear/read a teaching, then pause and contemplate it, which I did, albeit sketchily, for a day, and then assimilate it. That helped a lot with this sticking point.
By the way, I truly appreciate the crisp clarity and thoroughness of your presentation that I am experiencing as I wade into it.
Curiously, I have experienced the feeling that, having set the book down to contemplate a point or to end the study session, I will be able to pick it back up and easily find where I left off, and resume my inquiry from there.
Thanks once again for your valuable guidance and support along the way.
Excellent work. Your vigilance is paying off. The ego will use any many of thoughts to try to reassert its dominance in the psyche. When such ideas arise as “My immersion in Vedanta is not working…”, remind yourself, as you did in this case, that you are already equanimous, that only the mind is not. Of course, this doesn’t always immediately lay to rest the experience of anxiety, frustration, anger, fear, what have you, but through repeated redirection, the mind will eventually reorient its perspective and realize that its essential nature is awareness and that awareness is its true identity—that is, your true identity. Then the mind will be able to relax into its role as the processer of experience without the disturbance that comes from a sense of personal responsibility for that experience. Which is not to say that the mind cannot be used as a tool to help make experience as pleasurable, or at least palatable, as possible, only that it realizes that it cannot control experience and so it does what it can and accepts the ensuent results as the fruit of the field, God’s grace, or the unavoidable outcome of the law of karma by which the manifest universe operates.